As a person, I am thankful for many things- food, air, clean water (which is a hell of a lot better than some people have), education, et cetera, et cetera… And these are all fine and dandy because I honestly am thankful for those things but they do not relate to me as an individual. As a person, I am one in a body of millions to the billions. As an individual, I am one out of those millions and billions. There is no one quite like me and there never will be.
That is one thing amongst a list that myself as an individual, has composed. I am so thankful for being Amanda. Being myself and being true to who I am has created the girl typing these words. Through Tumblr, anyone can see that two of my major influences in life are Frank Turner and Doctor Who. I am so thankful for these men (Frank and the Doctor), even though one of them is fictitious.
I am thankful for Frank Turner because he has been there for me through his music. 2011 has been one hell of a year with many ups and far too many downs, but his music always managed to fit the situation. Earlier this year something happened to me that was not my fault yet I blamed myself for a period of time for it to happen. Slowly, I just began to realize that this world is filled with good and bad but you cannot let the bad outweigh the good.
Five of his songs, in a sense, became a lifeline for me. They were a constant reminder that there is always something more. I was going to get his signature tattooed onto myself but I have since thought of a better route. When I see him live next (hopefully March 1st), I am going to have him write a set of lyrics of his that have and forever will be close to me- Love is free and life is cheap.
I am thankful to him for keeping my head above the rising water.
Next was the Doctor. I have been watching Doctor Who going on six or seven years now. David Tennant was my first Doctor and will forever remain my favorite for the sheer fact that he forever changed my view on the world.
With his wild mind, compassion, loneliness, wide-eyed wanderlust, and forever curious mind, he was perfect to me. His flaws (which are more than abundant) just made me fall in love with him instantaneously. Then he regenerated into Eleven, who immediately attached himself to my heart. Eleven is quite literally nine years old and nine hundred years old all at once. Whether the Doctor is David Tennant or Matt Smith or Tom Baker, I owe him everything for shaping me. Through him (mainly Ten), I learned to be better, to be nine and nine hundred all at once, and do be as kind and adventurous as possible. Thank you.
My family is on this list, too. I cannot forget them. They don’t get big ol’ sections like Frank Turner and the Doctor but they are to be mentioned. I love them dearly and am lucky to have them. We may fight often but we always love each other. It will be hard when I move away from them when the time comes.
Finally, my friends. My friends, my friends, my friends! The best of the best… sometimes. Yes, sometimes that make me want to drive a bullet straight through my skull but it wouldn’t matter because my pure love for them would stop the bullet, repel it back into its casing safely and then the love would slap me across the face for being so stupid. My friends are my everything. I could never get tired of them.
I am surprised to have them because of my crazy ass antics but they love me and put up with me. To them, I am not a girl but just Amanda. Sometimes it sucks because it makes me wonder if I will ever be more than that to a guy (because all of my closest friends are guys) and sometimes it is the absolute best thing in the world because they all trust me more than they do most other people. I do the stupidest and silliest adventures with them and we make the best memories and work through the hard ones. They are there for me when I need them in those moments that I just literally cannot hold it in to myself anymore.
These four set of individuals are why I am so thankful.
Thank you for reading. What are you thankful for?